Friday, September 10, 2004


Last night I had a dream that I was in a big room with a bunch of people I knew. Actually, it wasn't a room so much as an open space. Maybe it was like a camp or a field or something? I had a stereo and the speakers were all broken. The wires were exposed and everything was falling apart. I was trying to put it back together when I realized it was all chewed up and Elroy had done it. My cat chewed my speaker wires. Damn.

The Empty Box was there. He was talking about his wife and their pool. Or something. I can't remember. But what was he doing there? He does not belong in my subconscious! Out, damned spot! Out!

I think Mug was there too. And Mereubu and Rampant Bob showed up. Mereubu was teeny like a small Asian woman. She gave me a bitchy hello and wouldn't hug me. I said "it's because you are a Virgo". What? I am crazy in my subconscious.

Suddenly my dream morphed into my hanging out with the cast of Friends. I was in a hottub with Jennifer Aniston and Lisa Kudrow. It wasn't sexy though. It was a GIANT hottub. Lots of people were there too. Some greasy old man was trying to get up in Jen's grille. I told him "step off, yo." I am protective of Jennifer. I know how jealous Brad can get. Or something. We talked about our jobs and what they are doing now. How they miss their day to day routine.

Finally I was in a room with Matt LeBlanc and I think Jennifer Aniston was there too. He was tired from doing new episodes of Joey. He was doing situps. He picked me up to crack my back and he was telling us about how his baby had died, but it was in the third person and he wasn't really sad about it. Somehow it all led back to the speaker wires and Elroy.

I don't know. I am crazy. It's obvious. And my subconscious is a weird wild place.

I need a nap.


Thursday, September 09, 2004

three years ago

Three years ago today I was at the JP World's Fair. It was a hot, sunny day and I remember so many things about it.

Annie and Lucie were almost 2 then, running around in their sun hats and white Platoosa tank tops. I was sitting on the curb, listening to music, watching them go back and forth showing each other leaves and sticks and dogs. Annie decided she wanted to have her lips smooshed together all day and walked around looking like a little prune.

I have pictures of Lucie taking Delaine's sunglasses off over and over again, and cracking up every time. Redundancy is very funny when you are almost two years old. I have a photo in my cube above the computer I am writing this on of me and Lucie hugging fiercely on that day. We are a mass of hair, and chubb, and smiles.

At one point, back on the curb, Ned appeared and he and I walked through the mass of people, and kids, and dogs to hear Lovewhip playing. Past one of those crazy jumping things where kids go in with out shoes and jump until they feel sick, and vendors selling cotton candy and giant pretzels.

Babaloo played and I sat with Heather and Jennifer and ate lemon ices. Afterwards we all went to the Behan, and Bob showed up to tell me about Sarah moving to Somerville and the dramas of unpacking.

For dinner, Alex and John had a barbecue with Martine and all the kids. We all drew on the driveway and garage with chalk. I wrote my name. Bob drew a drum kit. Alex showed us pictures of her with Elvis Costello.

It was a hot end of summer day. It was fun. It was lovely.

Two days later, I got up and watched a plane crash into a building live on TV. And everything changed.

Now I can't think of 9/11/01 without thinking about 9/9/01. A happy day, full of people I love. Just a peaceful sunny day.

In another world.


Wednesday, September 08, 2004

yoo hoooo

this is a test. Of the free blogger system.

You will know it is a test b/c you will see my page in new and purty colors. If you don't see me, well, then it doesn't matter anyway.


Tuesday, September 07, 2004

getting my yayas out

Just spent a good 20 minutes procrastinating and reading the web site for the new season of America’s Next Top Model which premieres Septmber 22nd. Oh, happy day!

Anyway, there are bios of each “model”. Here are my thoughts.

Eva. Her favorite movie is Crooklyn.

What? What does that even mean? Oh, and her favorite magazine is Jungle.


Jennipher. Um. Please. Learn how to spell your name. Just cause you spell it with a crazy bizarre P (which….well. No. Just NO) it doesn’t mean you are different and/or interesting. It’s only a P. I doesn’t stand for (or substitute for) “personality”.

Julie. Her favorite movies are Spaceballs, The Three Amigos and Someone Like You. The Three Amigos is funny, but Your Favorite Movie? Oy. And I think she is the only person to even have SEEN Someone Like You. That’s the one with Greg Kinnar, right? Anyone? Spaceballs? Not. Even. Going. There. Also, in the thumbnail she is wearing what appears to be a curtain or a bedspread knotted on her head. I think it is suppose to say “Ethnic”. Instead it says “This Is Not a Hat”.

Kristi’s favorite food is yellow cake with chocolate frosting. Does it even matter what color it is when you see it in reverse? Also, her OTHER says she wore an American flag dress to her prom. Oh. My.

Nicoles occupation is “former punk rocker”. Well….ummm…what?

Yaya. Her name is YAYA. She’s probably already heard every joke about “getting them out” etc.

Can’t wait for the 22nd! Bring the drama.


and I don't wanna die...I just wanna ride on my motor-cye-cle

Can someone explain these stupid mini-motorcycles to me?

What is the point? Are they suppposed to look anything other than COMPLETELY RIDICULOUS?!? Walking to get coffee the other day and this doofus on his retarded tiny bike almost ran over my ankles as I crossed the street. Then, as he pulled away he popped some truly pathetic (and hysterical) wheelies. Um, okay. Am I supposed to be impressed? Cause, really, it just makes me want to laugh.

Does it mean something like, I am so comfortable with my manliness that I can ride this TEENY bike and not be intimidated and embarrassed?

I guess, because they are so stupid, that also makes them kind of awesome. But still, I just don't understand.

because I said so